Now I have been wearing hijab
I was born with the name of Ranita Linkan Kartini, grew up in Surabaya (Indonesia) and then to work in Jakarta (Indonesia). In 1994, I married a Muslim after my first pre-Islamic heritage. When converting to Islam, my family strongly opposed. I strongly disagree mother I embraced Islam. Because my mother a devout Protestant Christian and our family home is a haven priests who are in the learning task. Moreover, later my mother who has four children, two boys and two girls, his daughters embraced Islam.
Although I've become a Muslim, I still love going to church to worship. After two years running, I feel giddy. I do not know where to go the direction of my life. Go to church or mosque, Christianity or Islam. When I deal with family problems or other serious problems, I want to complain to who? Ask for advice to the family, obviously impossible because they would blame me who chose to convert to Islam. Finally I surrender everything to God.
I beg pardon of God. Alhamdulillah, Allah gives guidance. I am aware Islamic run of conscience. I've left the old religion and creed has vowed two sentences but have not run it. Therefore, I began studying Islam. I began to pray, learn to read the Qur'an, fasting, and ask the experts. I also think, kids want my students to where? Is their religion at random? I do not want them halfway. If Islam is true Islam yes. So I think it's better in the same religion.
From good intentions, I believe God heard and give way. My husband and I repented, and began to worship. Even the former husband of less faithful in worship, now diligently and learn more in depth than mine. I used to have many dreams and desires that are worldly. But now, I feel like a helpless little human beings before God. So actually we can live our lives without a burden. Without the grandiose desire. Even if we are given a trial by God, there must be a purpose behind it.
In an opportunity to study religion, I met a Ustadz. Maybe God gave instructions to send it to me. He opened the letter al-Nisa, one of the verse says Muslim women should cover aurat. That was the beginning my heart was moved to wear the hijab. After Umrah, I try to wear the hijab as everyday wear.
I got an understanding of the veil of time worshiping Umrah in 1996. At that time I asked the sister in law while in the Masjid Nabawi. Why we women must be veiled? If not covered, but worship is good, what's still going to hell? Then my sister-in-law replied with the parable gives it a uniform hijab. When brought to account, with the same level of worship, we women are veiled will get a better place than that is not covered. Now it's up we want to choose which one. If we want to face the people we respect, we must also be neat. To men only we could be so, let alone want to face God.
I can accept that logic. Hijab is our solemn sense of God. God has set this in the Qur'an. And these rules must be made for the good of mankind, especially women. With the hijab, Allah wants us to raise the dignity of women. Since returning from pilgrimage, I intend to try for 40 days. Remove the 40 days, I even feel uncomfortable to remove the veil when out of the house. Alhamdulillah, up to now I still veiled. The husband was very supportive of my scarf.
The desire to make the way I dress covered in change. Can no longer be much less stringent showing genitalia. I am ashamed that remember a time when I am happy to wear short skirts. During the process of wearing hijab for the first time, I face many temptations, especially pressure from family Mami. They thought I was weird because a lot of Muslims women do not wear hijab. Also from friends association before veiled. They say I wear hijab most only briefly, will also be released again.
I remember in 1996 not many who wear the hijab, so when I viewed it as alien by family and friends. To me, all it is a challenge. In my heart even fervor to fight the challenge. Period only just been surrendered. With the hijab, I am so motivated to improve my character. Alhamdulillah, I underwent during the learning process, supporting the husband's family. Now I'm in a big family environment that the average female veiled. In fact, now Mrs. SAA families who were originally hostile to me, now you can receive.
With veiled, morality must also be changed. Shame it feels when you're dressed like this, our morals are bad. Muslim clothing also keeps us from the passions and temptations. This allows us in life and worship. Try not we dress that shows genitalia. It would be seduced by men. Yes if a strong faith. If it is not strong, households could fall apart, then arise adultery. Who is wrong? In this case women. Not a male. Because women who showed his private parts. Indeed, the eye was the gift of God and serves to see, but in our religion, men are required to maintain vision.
I teach children who do not dress open. They see me everyday veiled, Alhamdulillah they understand. So most of my kids do not want to wear clothes that are not sleeved. When there is ever a recitation, he was told by a scholar from Iran who said that the age of nine girls should wear headscarves. My son says he already knows. He will wear the headscarf for another year because now she's only eight years old. I never taught it. Awareness is growing of the child's own heart. Hence the importance of family, early children had to be prepared. Since then, the picture and their understanding of religion began to take shape.
I live Islam through the learning process. Starting from good intentions, God heard my prayer and given road. At first my husband and repent, then began to worship. Even my husband who used to be less in beribadahnya, now even more diligent and learn from me. During the learning process, I was so much to know. So I can compare which ones need and which ones are good. In fact, my husband had not worked because it followed an understanding that emphasizes the importance of worship to be leaving the worldly interests. But now no longer. Now my husband held a recitation 3 times a week at home. This study is open to anyone. Often there is jama'ah who can not afford and his home away, because he benighted our capacity to stay at home.
I'm sure God must have a purpose. Behind all this, there must be a silver lining. Try to imagine so many people, three times a week once a week plus husband recitation recitation mothers. Eat and drink, all guaranteed. Where the cost for all this. Especially in difficult times like now. But Alhamdulillah, there are just way. God who gave us adequacy. I feel that given the excess by God to be able to help others.
I realize the good fortune that God has given a deposit that we actually borrowed from God to be used in the way of Allah. What we can actually have the rights of others in it that must be removed. I am grateful to still dicukupkan fortune by God. When compared with the first, the husband's income more precisely. But fortune gained I now know everything kosher, the right person is in it too is eliminated. We do not take the rights of others. With so many people who should be helped, actually, I feel deprived. I was sad because he could not help more people. But God the Most Set determine how much ability I now help others through the dititipkanNya fortune.
What I learned from the learning process as long as this is an act which is based on good intentions, God willing, will be made easy path by God. With sincerity in doing something, God will not let us suffer. If it is God lowering trials, it is because God wants to show us the silver lining. Also to remind us not to show off in front of fellow human beings, because there are many other people in need.
Experience during my studies of Islam, it turns out science is extremely broad. Many of us do not know and it makes us feel small. It turned out that the knowledge I can be very small. By knowing the limitations, we will not become arrogant. Thought he knew everything. We must keep learning. In the study we were not be absorbed in the doctrines or particular streams. Islam is one, our sisters and brothers. Right now we are still easily be broken because of different opinions. Let us learn again. Learning for the advancement of Islam, including Islamic economics to be the same with people of other faiths.
