Falling And Building My spirits In Wearing Hijab

Falling And Building My spirits In Wearing Hijab

Once when I asked myself, "Why are my friends wear the veil off again?" I stroked his chest and tried to answer the question myself.

A variety of estimates that came to mind. Wearing the hijab does not update, uncomfortable, hot, hard. Maybe that's the reason my friends who were not seen again wear the hijab.

Headscarves in schools is still attached to their bodies. Aurat they are invisible. Looks elegant indeed. But somehow when they are out of school obligation to wear the hijab, the veil which was released just this August. They casually leave the house without a hijab covering their private parts.

I saw my friend wearing a headscarf was a new one, suddenly came out without a headscarf. On the road I met with friends from school, he was the same as my playmate. What about them? Not only my best friend just like that, but most women around me. Why are they so underestimate the hijab? Though clearly emblazoned on the Al-Quran and Hadith. Do they know it?

I've talked with friends in class and they mostly know. "My parents say if you wear hijab do not overdo it, how the pool wearing a veil," said my best friend when he sat down with me. I just said nothing. I'm still not daring to straighten my friend's words. I'm afraid to say a smart ass by my friend. Little courage I can only pray in my heart. O God ends meet servants of science.

Seeing the state of my friends, I began to look in the mirror and remember the experience a little bit when you start wearing hijab. When entered first level secondary school, my father told me to wear the hijab. But what comes out of my mouth, the word "not" I say when my father really wished I was wearing hijab. Given that once I felt like crying. Why did I refuse the request of my father. At that time I already baligh and must wear the hijab. Refusal is supported by my mother. My mother said I was a child not yet ready to wear hijab.

"Please sir do not be too pushy. This child is not ready, "said the mother because the father could not explain in detail why he made me wear hijab and I looked down afraid because his father showed his disappointment as he passed me, and mother. Forgive me father. I have made a disappointed father.

Since the first to wear the hijab have been unthinkable until dad told me to wear it even it is not unthinkable. I still think the veil is complicated, hot, and all sorts of negative impressions about the hijab. Indeed the Koran in the village when I wear hijab when I was always noisy own. Skewed, needles. So that makes her think that I'm not ready to wear the hijab and reject the father's request.

Stepping on the eighth grade, my father often bought religious magazine. Not long ago my dad bought me a Muslim youth magazine and happened to discuss about the hijab khusu columns. Discussion that is lightweight and easy to understand, I became more interested and more convinced that I must wear the hijab. The more often my dad bought me the magazine, the driven spirit to explore the science of religion.

Currently sitting ninth grade I was not wearing the hijab. I was already intending to start wearing hijab, but because I had class 3 and soon graduated junior high, then the mother suggested that I wear the hijab at school entry. Well I followed the advice my mother again. But intentions to wear hijab I still have to make happen.

I tried to leave the house wearing a headscarf. In the beginning I was a bit awkward to wear the hijab. But, I try to persuade myself to continue wearing these precious clothes. Gradually I got used to leave the house wearing a headscarf. I feel safe by wearing this veil. I'm so impatient waiting for the time I entered high school. Because at that time that I began to refine my duty as a Muslim who already baligh.

Even though I already wear the hijab if out of the house. Not to complete it if the school does not wear hijab. Feelings of insecurity are still pushed in my heart that I know wear the hijab is an obligation.

Three years already I had my days in junior high school without a headscarf. Before I knew the ins and outs of the headscarf I was indifferent to appearances. I still wear tight clothes which reveal curves. It sometimes invites negative thoughts of others. Each run was always teased by boys in the street. Maybe this is often experienced by many women who do not wear the hijab. Now that I know of the veil, I immediately throw away the negative thoughts about hijab. Bismillaahir rahmaanir raahim I intend to wear the hijab.

Entering the high school level to wear the veil intentions are perfectly realized. It turns out that wearing the hijab at school a lot too. I'm glad to see my friends at school who wear headscarves. The first time I entered high school I was not so concerned with the friends who sometimes play the hijab because I too was young so to remind my friend is still hampered by a lack of knowledge. Therefore, I kept trying to add science my religion.

When following the congregational prayers in the mosque school, I looked at seniors who are ablution. "Her veil was really big." I looked at brother until she finished her ablutions. Piqued my curiosity again. I go back Elfata magazines and periodicals owned by the father read over and over again until mudeng. Apparently not syar'i hijab. I saw myself in the mirror. What should I do. What should I change my appearance? Yes, I have to wear the hijab headscarf syar'i in accordance with what is stated in the Qur'an and as-Sunnah. I rearrange my scarf and gradually but surely I'm fixing my hijab in line with the increase in adult life.

Three years already I'm wearing the hijab. And within three years, not all the positive changes in myself accepted by the people around me. Often my mother cornered me to dress like school friends and friends playmate. "Child, if you do not wear veils big dong. If you wear a veil mediocre like the other friends. "Many times my mom said something like that and many times I explain to my mother. Sometimes I helped my father to explain it to my mother. But still my mother say that way if I leave the house wearing the veil is pretty wide.

Not only my mother who looked at me weird and stiff. Playmates were also looking at me strangely. Indeed, I experienced changes in both attitude and appearance three years since this was in high school.

Until I wrote this story I still do not feel confident wearing hijab syar'i, with the news about the terrorist who makes my mother cornered me become more frequent. "It's seen on TV nduk women big hood like you. So if you do not wear veils were large will be considered negative as anyone else you know. "I can only keep silent to hear it. I think I'd love to mother rebelling. But I held back, I do not want to make my mother sad. I just let her talk like that because I felt it could not break her heart. I can only pray, pray, and pray that God opens her heart to accept this change in me.

Faith in hijab in trouble again. The more self-confidence sank shortly after seeing my mates dressed today and saw a friend of one organization with which I wear hijab increasingly smaller. I try to jack my self-confidence. I'm sure the veil is also no less cool with today's fashion. My confidence grew slightly to see my friend who dared to take the decision to wear hijab width. Instead he's wider than my head. My friend is also often encourage me "keep istiqomah". This means that I should stay on this road. Being a Muslim is always istiqomah. May God repay my friend here.

Lots of temptation and seduction demon urged me to undress this noble cause. Temptations that ever made me think to take off the hijab. All positive changes are not always accepted by the field. Many challenges must be faced. the istiqomah's always up and down. Sometimes wear a small scarf, jlbab colorful and leotards. O Allah, I regret this in mind. But God is never far from his people who have good intentions. I know that and I'm sure it's because I experienced it.

Subhanallah this hijab is obedience to Allah and His Messenger. Veil 'Iffah (glory). The veil of chastity. Protective veil. Hijab is taqwa. The veil of faith. Hijab is haya '(shyness). Veil ghirah (jealousy). There's no sense of regret or disappointment slightest wear this hijab. Loyalty to the hijab should I paste in the liver.

I'm thankful to have parents who still gives me the freedom to take decisions in choosing this way of life. Although my father did not explain directly.

Thank God through the medium of magazines and articles I get an important lesson that were previously unthinkable. Although hampered by the attitude of my mother who is still not fully accepted this change in me.

But I remain loyal. Until now I thought would never end, never bored and never tired of discussing the headscarf issue syar'i according to Quran and Hadith through any media, because it is lightweight and always the same despite the discussion, it is still difficult to realize. All media propaganda often raised the issue headscarf, but not many people only half-way in understanding the true meaning of the hijab.

Remember, understand, and tie at the heart of God's love towards creatures called women through verse QS. Al-Ahzab: 59 and QS. An-Nur verse 31. This paragraph will always be around the woman's life until whenever;

1. "O Prophet! Tell your wives, daughters and wives of the believers:" Let them stick their head through the body ". That is so they are easier to be recognized, therefore they are not disturbed. And Allah is Oft-forgiving, Most merciful. "(Surat al-Ahzab: 59).

2. "Say to the believing women. Let them hold their views and maintain their genitals and let them show off their adornment except that (usually) visible from them. And let them put her veil cloth to their chests, and not to show off their adornment except to their husbands or their fathers or their husbands' fathers (law) or their sons or sons of their husbands or their relatives (brother and sister ) or sons of their brothers or sons of their sisters (nieces) or women or slaves of Islam which they possess or the servants of men who have no desire (for women) or children children who do not understand female genitalia ... "(Surat an-Nur verse 31).

My friends who still underestimate the veil, may Allah give way to you. The road to the truth so that they no longer underestimate the hijab. "Keep Istiqomah".

Writer: Eva Khofiyana